I’m sorry i didn’t blog this soon but with everything going on my mind has been other places. I got my approval letter on a Saturday when I was out of town My husband emailed it to me as a surprise. So Monday the first thing I did I called to see when we could schedule my surgery not thinking my surgeon is only in office on Thursday and Friday. But that Tuesday night at 8:30 the nurse called and said “I’m going on vacation for two weeks you want to schedule this surgery now?” of course I do!! So April 14th is the big day and it’s coming soon and coming fast and I’m so excited!! I’m excited to get my health back and I’m ready for the help get the rest of this weight off forever and know more yo-yoing.
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UNDERLAND!!!!
Today is the day FINALLY! I hit the 100’s for the first time in nearly 20 years! What a sweet feeling that is! I have not seen the scale show a 1 at the beginning of my weight since shortly after my youngest was born nearly 20 years ago! What a great feeling it is.
Tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary and I set a goal a year ago to lose 100 lbs in the year. On Wednesday of this past week, I made that goal!!! 100 lbs in 1 year. It almost seems impossible to imagine. That is like losing an entire person!
I am really starting to get my energy back now. I am about 3 months out from my surgery now and things are going great. I am walking at least 4-5 times a week and sticking to my program watching everything I eat, monitoring my protein very closely ( I want to keep my hair) trying to get my 64 oz of water in a day and so on.
The biggest changes I have seen are in my skin. I don’t have the oily skin like I did before, at least not to the extreme it was. I used to have to buy products to mattify before putting make up on and then even with that, I would look like I was melting after a few hours. Now, after the end of a work day, I barely have a shine. I am cold all the time, no matter what. My upper back hurts all the time. My research has found that this is common with rapid weight loss because the body is trying to find a new center of gravity and the muscles and such are over compensating. I am trying to work through this with my massage therapist and chiro but it is going to take a long time until my body adjusts I think.
Adjusting to a new body image is a whole different set of issues. My mind is slowing starting to catch up to the change and I can see the new me in the mirror finally. I shop at the thrift stores every few weeks to buy clothes that fit as they become baggy so quickly. I bagged up all the old clothes and have sold many of them off as I never plan to put them on again. I don’t want that reminder in my house. I have set my mind to follow this new life and stick to it and never turn back. I see others around me making changes in their lives after seeing the success I have found and it feels good to be able to inspire people to make positive, healthy changes and see them succeed as well. It brings me such joy to see them excited and tell me about their success on the scale or tell me about an accomplishment they made and their willingness to share it with me. I love being their biggest cheerleader! I would have never thought that by making the decision to take this journey to save my health, I would actually be saving others.
I am planning on taking 1 year anniversary pictures tomorrow in celebration of my long journey so far. I might even dig out my “fat” outfit I kept and try it on just to get a sense of how far I really have come! I encourage anyone who goes down this path to keep one outfit as a reminder to look back on some day and say….wow…look at me now and look how much I have accomplished!
May the next year of this journey be just as awesome and successful!
Tae Bo kicking my butt!
Ok folks…it has been a good 15-16 years since this girl has tried to keep up with the Tae Bo videos..no lie! So what on earth would make me think that I could do it in my mid 40’s? NO CLUE! But I picked up a copy of the fat burner video DVD and had a complete loss of all reason and popped that sucker into the DVD player tonight! 55 minutes later, 2 bottles of water, 3 gallons of sweat, 2 knee surgeries, pulled muscles and Lord only knows what else later, I FINISHED that darn work out! Now I may never get out of bed again once I get in it tonight, but by gosh I finished it! My kicks were lame and the knees could not handle some of the moves at all so I marched in place for part of it, but I didn’t give up once! I smell like a skunk now as the sweat drips off of me but I am proud of myself for not quitting and finishing that death work out! Will I be doing it daily…HELL NO! Maybe once or twice a week…in between my treadmill walking to change it up. I ordered a different work out of his that is 10 minute target sessions that are bit more realistic for me right now that I can build up my stamina and fitness level. WHAT WAS I THINKING?? My hope is to help target some areas that the treadmill just won’t help with such as my bat wing arms!! Wish me luck!
Putting things into perspective!
My brain has not caught up yet to my weigh loss. When I look in the mirror every day, I still see the old me looking back. I talked to my weight loss center about this and they advised the best way to get me to see the changes is to take photos and compare them to photos of the old me. Today is the first time I have done this since I started this journey a year ago. While I have taken photos along the way, I have never compared them to me at my heaviest until today. The photo above is a photo taken of me on the left at me on my heaviest that I can remember and me yesterday on Valentines day 2015.
I will say, when I did this, I was in tears. I don’t recognize the faces staring back at me in either picture. I don’t remember that heavy person even though it has only been a year on this journey and the new face staring back at me has changed so much, it is barely recognizable. So many people have said this to me, that they wouldn’t recognize me today if it were not for who I happen to be with when they saw me. My own parents have even said this when they saw my new photo that if they saw me in person, they may not recognize me.
It feels good to look at this, knowing I have lost almost 100 lbs in the last year. My 1 year anniversary will be in only about 4 weeks that I started this weight loss journey with my family doctor and when I weighed myself a few days ago, I was 9 lbs away from losing 100 lbs!! This is my big milestone I really wanted to hit by 1 year so I am pretty confident I will hit it.
I am still battling this virus I last posted about, I am on round 4 of my antibiotics and been to 3 doctors now. I have finally turned the corner though I think and starting to feel a little better. I keep pushing forward to get past this virus and back on a healthy track so I can get on an exercise routine and really start trying to get more weight off and start toning up. I would love to hit my goal weight by end of summer. I know it is a lofty goal but I think it is also doable if I work hard, follow my program and stick to the exercise.
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